Sunday, 12 July 2015

the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb

dedicated to my closest friends leon, rebecca, kati, tori, millie, marie, bella, and abbie .x
“forget our mothers and past lovers forget everyone” – Bros by Wolf Alice

There is no amount of adjectives in the dictionary that I could use to describe the importance of friendship. Personally, I know that without friends I wouldn’t have been able to have some of the best days of my life, and I wouldn’t have gotten through the worst days without them. There is no way to describe what it feels like to be sharing a bed at 2am, or a path way in the scorching heat with someone who genuinely means so much to you. There is a certain amount of comfort in knowing that these people aren’t going to hurt you and that you're able to drop your guard enough around these people and they're going to accept you either way.

And I don’t see any harm in having more than one set of friends. You are not defined by one thing such as your choice of music, or your preferred school subject, or how you dress, you can wear jeans and hoodie one day, and a skirt and sandals another - and why should you have to choose? The beauty of having more than one group of friends is that you are always happy and always have someone to turn to! I'm in three group chats and I had classes with three different friendship groups and all it meant was that I had three times the amount of fun. There was never a class where I felt unwelcome and that was so important because I'm young and I was also starting at a new school.

Following on from that, there is absolutely nothing wrong or harmful or different about having a friend of the opposite gender. Who else am I supposed to text about how boys dry their dick after they go for a wee? It’s not something I’d feel entirely comfortable asking my dad. My best friend in the entire world is a boy and I am a girl, and I guess it’s not as common as same sex friendships, but I think the openness and honesty we have with each other makes us stronger. Any good relationship is supposed to go through ups and downs, so when we fell out for three months a couple of years ago, it only made us see how valuable our friendship is. It’s so frustrating when we’re not allowed to hang out in my room because we’re on our own. Just because I have knickers drying on my radiator doesn’t mean he's gonna jump my bones? What do you think that he thinks I'm wearing beneath my jeans? There’s a memorable tumblr post about this, which I have no idea how to find, but it goes something like “I don’t want to take him to my room and make out, I want to throw game pieces at his head when he beats me at the game” or something and it’s the truest thing I have ever read. Chill out we are just best friends. SO WHAT IF WE WERE MAKING OUT ANYWAY?! I trust him with more of myself than my ex-boyfriend.

My favourite story is that two of my closest friends and I became friends after I referenced that mitochondria text post in an outburst one history lesson and the rest (god forgive me for this pun) was history. And in another class, I piped up and asked to have lunch with another two girls and we’ve been best friends ever since. But the one thing that stumps me is how our Economics banta chat only started several months ago, because since then we’ve been to several parties together and been to gigs and I have no idea what we did before the chat in all honesty.

I've had no experience of having a romantic relationship so far in my life, so I think it just makes the bonds I make with these people even stronger. There really is nothing that I wouldn’t do for these people and it stuns me every day how some people who were up the road from me for five years would turn out to be some of the people I hold closest to my heart, and the faces I had lunch with every day would gradually fade from me. At such a young, emotional age these things are so important because your parents don’t understand the position you’re in because they’ve aged since then, and your siblings aren’t your age either, so friendship becomes so pivotal to you. And at this age, we’re all discovering new things and there is no one else apart from my friends who I’d want to see the world for the first time with.

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